There is a version of you that is extremely competent. It wakes at a considered hour, follows a system, tracks its inputs and outputs, and moves through the world with a practised efficiency that others sometimes mistake for calm. It has opinions about sleep hygiene. It is never more than two days behind on email. It has learned, through considerable effort, to respond rather than react, to pause before speaking, to sit with discomfort before getting on with being a high-func